dreams, illiusions, are they but delusions?

5H Chalet!

2009-11-20T07:59:00.000-08:00

LOL i'm a regular, shit!
Okay, i jus came back frm 5h chalet.
Well, i onli went frm e 2nd to e 3rd day
Met ying n quek at je
BRAVED winds n rain to get there lehhhhhhh.
At je it was lyk some typhoon plus hurricane LOL.
Stood all e way there ._.
Den reached e UBER big chalet (no photos go ying's blog if u wan view)
den stoned n watched ben 10 for a while on cable
Cas LESSER INSISTED ON WATCHIN >.<
Den played abit of bridge...
Won a fair bit btw :)
den after tht we had a bbq (nt relli)
cas apparently i was under e kitchen duty.
Fryin fries, wedges, chicken wings, fish balls etc.
wif Ai, bangla, vikky n quek
ban zhi mei was a viewer LOL.
Hello first tym i ever fried chicken wings hor.
I qian jing da xiao jie had to qing zhi sia chu for 5H
b touched!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Summore i washed so many dishessssssss
Nvr washed tht many in my whole life b4
LOL.
Den after all this, most of e guys went to cycle.
Hence me, bangla, ai n vikky played truth or dare while ying ying slpt.
Hahahaha.
It was abit sian at first cas mi, bangla n vikky got lyk nth jing bao at all LOL.
So we had alot of random qns LOL.
Den after tht bangla brought out the alcohol tht her parents bought for us.
Vikky didnt drink much,
3 of us drank relative.
It was funny cas ai was lyk:
Nt nice leh.
Den she meng drink LOL!!!
She got drunk HAHAHA cannot walk in a straight line!!!
Anyway den jus as it got EXCITING
e guys barged in ._.
bt anyway after a while we all slpt.
LOL...
Anyway i admire ppl hu nvr had any major crushes b4.
Lucky ppl! X3

Notes on 'shopping':
Better to love and lost than never loved at all.
Apparently this is the best seller. It's just nice advertising and packaging, but it doesn't really pass quality checks.
Don't buy this.

Better to love and forget than never loved at all.
New and improved, but note this is just as costly, not worth the cash.
Buy this if you have extra money to spare.

Better to be loved and forgotten than never loved at all.
This is of much better quality. Doesn't really cost much cash.
Buy this if on discount.

Better to be loved, then forget than never loved at all.
This is of fantastic quality and worth the cash.
Buy this if you're not afraid of excessive waranty and after sale service of up to a year or more.

Better to be loved, then give up than never loved at all.
This is branded and of top-notch quality.
Buy this on impulse if you must. Grab on sight!

Better to love and give up than never loved at all.
This shouldn't even be sold.
But I bought it anyway.

Thinking...

2009-11-18T09:28:00.001-08:00

I've suddenly become an active blogger!
No one relli reads bt i dun care.
Had dance today,
nth interestin relli,
bt well no dance 2moro :D
(technicalli its alr 1 plus bt hahaha)
Anyway, hate it.
got a minor sprain :(
In addition to all my bruises etc.
Sucks :(
Still got perfs, n ESP my ballet exam comin up!!!
Mus recover in 2 dayssssssss
PPL PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!!!!!!!
Got a scratch on my face the appeared frm no where!!!
UGLYYYYYYYY.
In addition to all my pimples eeeeeewwwwww.
Life is unfair i've got all this sad stuff.
HAHA.
Whatever -.-
Btw did u noe tht whatever is the most irritatin word, accordin to research?
Haha my fren told mi this last tym XD
I agree!
Anyway lyk 2moro havin 5H chalet!
Should b relli excited.
Bt my ankle hurts lyk crap, n lyk well im onli goin in a afternoon.
Haha so ...
Nevermind.
Den well, i realised tht alot of my frens r lyk havin loads of probs n r lyk emoing all tht so -
Cheer up ppl :)
2moro will b better!
At least i hope it will :D
I may sound emo in e past few posts, bt
well, its cas
i lyk to write happy stuff in my diary,
so all e ZZZ stuff come here.
Cas a diary is smth u'll keep 4eva.
N a blog is smth u throw away.
I guess im someone hu doesnt wanna face reality.
Bt relli, wads e point if it onli makes u sad?
E point is,
there's no point.
So everybody,
follow jus as i do.
type it out,
n one, two, three:
THROW IT AWAY!!!
Haha.
You noe, you can't throw away e memories
But u can change how u feel abt them
Throw away all e negative emotions :)
When u hav reached a higher level
u can start throwin away the happy ones too.
Cas relli,
alot of times,
its the happy ones tht relli make u sad.
I had a nice chat wif many frens today.
Some content mentioned,
could use some throwin away.
For my frens,
and myself.

A little smth:
Happiness is a skill.
For some, it comes naturally.
For others, it takes a lifetime to master.
For most, it just takes some friends and family to pick it up.
Let me be you friend.
I can't guarantee I can help you pick it up,
but I think you can help me.
Yes.
I'm that selfish.
But ask yourself, who isn't?

FAIL!

2009-11-17T07:10:00.000-08:00

This is after a failed attempt to make a new blog on blogspot.
This is also after a failed attempt to make a new blog on xanga.
And many other failed attempts for many other stuff LOL.
So oh well, i shall continue to use this stupid blog for e tym being.
Haha, went to dance AGAIN today.
I dun relli mind wu chun feng cas it's quite slack hehehe.
Bt lyk im sianed of dancin everyday.
Yesterday had ballet rehearsal, e day b4 practice.
I'm nearly a full tym dancer. :(
Anyway lyk i've been in a bubbly mood lately, lyk goin out all tht.
Tokin to frens tht i haven't been tokin to in a while.
It's a nice feeling :)
To all e nice ppl hu hav been listenin to mi rant.
Thanks alot :)
I love u guys hahaha!!!
Bt today was alittle more screwed up.
Shall nt devulge too much even tho not many ppl even noe this blog is yet to die.
Lyk i feel quite distant frm alot of stuff.
N alot of ppl.
Well, i noe it cant be helped, bt i cant say i dun care for nuts.
Nvm i'll get used to it soon :)
Esp tht person.
ROAR.
Whatever, look at me, do i look lyk a care???
Yes i do HAHAHA.
Cut me some slack. I need some tym.
Time is of essence.
Finished reading a book "Leaving Eden" in one day.
Nt too bad, i'd say.
No wonder it got some award.
Reading another book now.
"Loving Frank", seems a bit draggy to mi :/
Bt its a best seller!!!!!!!
Haha omg im so fu qian.
But everyone noes tht hehehe.

Once again mus end this wif a nice forlorn abstract HEHE:

Distance between you and me. It's funny, cause
It's like the 'nearer' it is, the greater the space
Developed.
You'll probably not notice how much of it that you have
Over time.
Until it's too far for you to reach out anymore -
Know that this is inevitable. It's
Never too late, people say -
Obviously I know. This is not true at all but
Why is it that people like you fail to see this?
I don't have any idea how can... You be so stupid -
Can't you see that we're living in reality, it's not like
Anyone live in their dreams 4eva. Wake up -
Nobody can escape from the real world
That's not fair. But that's how it is
Get on with life, live with it -
Endurance is all we need. Grit your teeth,
Then stand up tall, and have pride in yourself -
Only that this is what we lack most. You are
Very nice, but not tough enough, you know?
Everyone knows that but you. So what do you have to say -
Regretting yet? You'd better soon, because
You're the least sensitive guy I've known. Trust me
On this, you don't know about the things around you.
Until now, I can't figure out why I... Am stuck with one

Like you.

Don't relli get it, do you?
Haha it's a rant by a gal scoldin her spineless guy friend XD
But well, as all of you alr know, there's lyk smth hidden inside.
Watch out for e full stops. Alternate lines.
Sometyms, you mean more to ppl den you think you do.
:)
Btw this gal is NOT me sayin this to any guy LOL.
*secrets*

Oh well.

2009-11-04T07:27:00.000-08:00

Okay i hav nt blogged in lyk 4eva!!!
Anyway i failed in creatin a new blog so...
So loser sia. Blog oso can fail.
Nt fated hahaha!
So..
I'm back for once.
Haha. Anyway I feel that the future feels so bleak.
I feel tht e world is such a sad place.
I'm screwed.
I have like 7 weekdays off this december.
This includes xmas eve, xmas n new year's eve.
I swear I've repeated this story millions of times to e ppl around mi.
And the worst thing is, I basically have nothing on:
It's only job shadowing and dance.
And only job shadowing really helps my portfolio.
I was hopin to build it up this holiday.
Maybe in my next lifetime. Yay!
And tht's not the only thing that's depressing.
I'm feeling so sick of myself.
Okay, not really hating myself or anything,
but my right arm hurts lyk crap, lyk i hurt my elbow durin YOG pract a while ago.
Bt still need to dance n since its nt fractured i jus shut the hell up LOL.
It's okay to hurt, cas i alr got my whole knees, thighs n elbows bruised,
abrasions haven't recovered n all tht.
Bt im worried tht lyk if one day i overexert it den cannot dance will get into deep trouble ZZZ.
N den i feel stupid.
Lyk when i tell my frens about how i feel.
They tell mi to pon dance or quit dance.
Neither r veri lykly possibilities right ._.
I hav nvr relli hated to dance,
bt i guess dancin has nvr been my forte or my passion.
I'm jus too used to it.
Bt i jus wish i could relli enjoy it.
For once.
Bt thinkin abt it. Tht's nt gonna happen anytym soon.
I giv up. I giv in.
Okay enuf about dance.
Then now even my goldfish is dying.
This is so sad.
It's been with us for so long.
Years!
And so it's old.
And its got a tumor on its back.
It's suffering - and has been for a few days.
Maybe this sounds really lame but I'm really upset about it.
Like when u walk past it and put your finger there, it responds.
It tries to move.
It struggles.
It knows you're there.
And you know it's suffering and well you can't do nuts to help it.
And it really makes me wonder.
Why does it try so hard.
Is it really worth it?
It's so painful to watch.
I don't even want to look anymore.
I wish it'll just rest in peace soon.
Haha. I feel stupid.
I'm so upset I feel that i'm nuts.
N i tell some ppl.
N i feel lyk they think i'm jus sayin it for fun.
Am I?
It's nt veri fun, u noe.
This may sound cheesy bt every life is precious.
So wonder, how you r spending yours.
Bt sometyms is better to think too little than too much.
I think too much. So i noe.
N i tell ppl too much.
Den i end up hurting myself in e process.
Cas wad they say seem so ...
Bt i know it's jus nt in em to noe wad it means to mi.
Can't blame em.
Sometyms idk either.
Complicated LOL.
N i think they'd rather nt get involved.
Smart choice.
Haha.
OKAY! Enough abt this.
On a lighter note!
I'm jus rantin.
I dun lyk it when ppl r emo when they blog all the tym.
Man get over it!
I get over stuff fast,
cas u need to hav a positive outlook in life.
It's nt how badly things r looking,
It's how badly u r looking at things.
So even if u can't leave unhappy events behind,
jus leave the unhappy feelings :)
But sometyms, it's the happy things tht make u feel sad.
So Goodbye,
I'm leaving my feelings behind.

A little abstract:
I left my feelings for you behind,
But as i looked back
I realised
They kept giving chase.
I wondered why,
So i stopped in my tracks
Just for a moment.
The feelings came to me
But before i took them back,
they went right past.
Perplexed
I stared hard to see where they were heading.
Then I saw this shadow in the foreground.
A familiar figure.
That's when I finally saw the light.
It wasn't that my feelings kept following me.
It was that as most people would,
I had wished you'd take them with you when you left.
And apparently my wish came true.
It was just that
I was the one relentlessly chasing behind you.
So now.
I think
I'm really going to stop
and watch you leave.

And I'd be happy
Just watching your shadow.

Year 2009 :)

2009-01-01T06:32:00.000-08:00

One year has past.
Another year gone D:
at least last year's been fruitful :D
Well, since I dun wanna go abt rattling abt last year,
nor do i hav anything much to blog abt today,
(If u relli must noe
the main highlights are the following:
I changed my bedsheet
BOUGHT MY PS3
n played
n played
n played)
mayb I'll tok abt the future -
the year ahead...
(glowing aura around the words above)
:D
okay, this basically means
I'm gonna say my new year resolutionssss
LOLx loads of 'S's over there.
here goes:

1) I'm gonna get in e top 10%
(&$@(&#(@^^#@*(& I missed by a tiny weeny bit this year)

2) I'm gonna read newspapers everyday!
apparently, I wanted to start doin tht eeyorns ago but...

3) I'm gonna do ALL my homework
(ok, at least most of em :D)

4) I'm gonna practise dance
(yes, I am goin to practise at tyms other than dance pract LOL)

5) I'm gonna make my eyes bigger
(my eyes hav been shrinkin teeny tiny so I wan DOUBLE EYELIDS)

6) I'm gonna make sure I dun get into anymore trouble
(hahaha, apparently i didn't fare tht well on tht this holis XD)

7) I'm gonna b a good n helpful citizen hu gives back to society
(LOL i'm jus gonna worked harder for CIP
so yeah, its nt as noble as it sounds)

8) I'm gonna become sportier n learn some sports
seriously i need it,
i practically can't play anythin now
LOL badminton is as rusty as rust.

9)I'm gonna b nice to my new class n my CCA peepos n family
THT's LYK EVERYONE yeah I noe
I'm jus gonna CONTINUE being as nice as I am LOLx

n finally -

9.1) I'm gonna get a bf! =.="
ok i'm jus kiddin for this
tht's why u see it's 9.1 n nt 10 LOL

FINALLY,
I will get to e main resolution of YEAR 2009!

10)I AM GOING TO
...
LOSE WEIGHT
ROAR!!!
(To all e ppl hu hav called me fat lately
HAPPY??? XD)
lol
I'm gonna lose a couple of kgs n inches off my waist
ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm gonna do pumpin n sit ups everyday
:D
hopefully =.="

So, now tht I've got all of this off my chest
Let's hope tht i will relli do it
AND CHEERS TO E NEW YEAR
:D

Back to Renci ~

2008-12-18T07:22:00.000-08:00

Okay, i finalli went for attachment today.
Hav been goin for dance e past 2 days.
Speakin of dance,
I think ppl nowadays r all becomin veri ZZZ.
(fill it in urself HAHA. Obv idk wad to put XD)
Lyk ppl nvr relli scold u den u lyk complain.
I mean, compare pls.
Sls was lyk 13,190,494,854,085 tyms worse last tym.
He is much nicer now.
I can't believe I'm bloggin n sidin him.\
But YES I AM.
Bt it's not lyk anyone involved will ever read this :D
ok back to topic.
I went back to renci today.
It was kinda boring in a morning.
But got better later HAHA.
I dun mean e slackin part XD
There was this nice uncle
hu was tellin jokes n his lifestory
throwin in some beauty tips n health tips :D
N Edmond keep suanin mi ah.
Tsk. Wad say I'm fat. :(
WATCH OUT! lol.
(now tht doesn't look too convincin, does it?)
haha.
Kris was emoin today oso.
N Esther didn't tell us why :(
ok it's a short post today.
2moro's gonna be e party :)

You make me feel kind of sad,
because you keep reminding me.
Again and again and again.
And I don't wanna be reminded of it ever.
EVER.
I wanna forget.
I wanna give up.
Leave me be.

On a lighter note:
HAHA To another person!
u noe hu u r
hu prob WILL read this.
Cheer up okay?
It's not the end on the world.
I can teach u to b hua chi if u wan.
Mayb it'll help :D

Went to Zemong's aunt's house LOL

2008-12-14T07:11:00.000-08:00

Ok, i woke up at 12.30 today
O_o
so freakin early LOL
den i had this YV attachment meetin again haha.
Went all e way to Orchard.
at e rate im goin, I'm gonna b an orchard pro in no tym
wait n see u ppl :D
den went to yoshinoya
cas all e other places were too crowded :(
bt nt lyk we ate anything anyway
we jus sat there for e ambience LOL
stole some other ppl's cup n bowl to put for display HAHAHA
den we discussed all e important stuff
we refers to mi, esther, hui bin, denyce n edmond
in case u all were wonderin :D
after i reached home
Zemong popped by :)
cas his aunt is my neighbour
we watched slamball
which is kinda lyk basketball
wif extra bouncin LOL
haha :) too lazy to put links here
google it urself :P
after tht i popped by his aunt's house
his whole family there O_O
n i ate dinner there lol :P
lyk i sound cheapo XD
bt they kindly offered mi, okay? :D
Loads of thanks haha
den we played boggle
we as in me, zemong, his parents, relatives etc.
all of them r lyk UBER PROS
i tio owned lyk mad sia :(
haha mayb i shuld hone my skills if i intend to visit again HAHA
after tht i went back
n back to all e normal stuff hehe

If i told em they were crazy
they would nvr believe it
If i told u you were crazy
u would nvr believe it
But i've been tellin myself i am crazy
So why do i believe it???

N i guess i noe wad im goin crazy about :/

FIRST DAY OF VOLUNTEERING - REPORTING!

2008-12-09T05:42:00.000-08:00

Today was my first day voluteerin at renci :D
it wasn't that bad
sadly to all u ppl dyin to see mi get tortured,
I made it out alive n kickin :D
YAY for VOLUNTEERIN
i didn't mind the moving of the beds n their belongings.
It wasn't tht bad, relli
except tht i was so scared tht i would accidentalli wheel e bed down e road
or tht i would smash it against e wall or against myself O_O
* it would do damage to mi if i hit it n nt e other way round,
if in any case u had e wrong idea*
Other then tht,
i guess i couldn't relli communicate wif em well
cas i can't speak dialects
n apparently it made it as tho we all were on diff frequency frm them
even tho we r also diff frequency frm edmond D:
e stoner tuning in on twilight zone :D
HAHAHA
oh well.
We were supposed to teach em how to fold origami
bt there were a few probs
firstly, i onli noe how to fold e chair
n all e other improvisions tht come frm it :/
so i had to lyk invent some morning glory
tht act doesn't relli look lyk one HAHA
bt denyce seems to lyk it alot :)
trust mi n my extra talented mind to think of smth so innovative :D
secondly, e elderly ladies dun relli seem interested in foldin origami
they rather sleep n enjoy life in dreamland :(
or jus go abt doin their own things
so apparently,
we spent most of e tym toking to em instead
they seemed to lyk it more than foldin
so i toked to this veri nice old lady :)
along wif esther and edmond
kris joined in once in a while
even tho he didn't seem to understand much
it was kinda interestin when she toked abt her past
even tho she repeated herself more than a couple of tyms :P
it was relli nice of her to share :D
nt tht im complainin bt i seriously think tht there ought to b chairs
for volunteers n visitors to sit on!
I stood there till my feet were screamin alr
i'm tempted to bring a foldable chair there HAHA
ppl u can treat mi to foot massage XD
it would b greatly appreciated :D
back to e old lady
she says tht my dimples look cute
n tht i look pretty :D
haha i jus HAD to write this
HAHAHAHA :)
alright, tht's abt it
dun wanna write too much
hohoho even tho i think i hav alr written alot
so see ya patient n faithful readers!
till e next tym i post ~

Let's all smile for a better day! :D
Let's all smile our troubles away! :)
I'm missing everything that matters,
and that everything is you.

n on a side note:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUETING!
No present yet
cas
WHERE'S MINE???

Dance Chalet

2008-11-18T04:35:00.000-08:00

I jus gt back frm e dance chalet :D
lol it wasnt too bad :)
even tho there were alot of tyms where we stoned cas we were too bored wif cards
nt there was nth else tht we could do =.="
didn't eat much for e bbq tho :(
bt it's ok wif mi oso
cas we went to e arcade halfway
played a couple of arcade games in total
taiko drum master
dance dance revolution
basketball
e 3 button game LOL
n some crazy ball throwing game
(yeah i noe it sounds wrong)
tht we went crazy playin LOL
we also played pool
woohoo ~
laiseng's a pro at it btw compared to us
lol den lyt managed to get into it
using xiao xu's card
O_O
n to think they were checkin mil's one to thoroughly
=.=" all crazy HAHA
still, most of the time was spent in the chalet
playing cards
normal games lyk
slapjack
daidee
bridge
cheat
n this indian poker dare game!
ok i must thank e heavens for savin mi
i was one of e few ppl who managed to survive wifout doin a dare
desmond was the ultimate (keep zhongin LOL)
it was quite funny i mus say :D
ls n des had to share this noodle
n ls was SO SUPER FUNNY LOL
den lyt n shu hui had to to tongue to tongue
lol des n shu hui had to kiss behind a plastic & catch a falling card with their heads too
poor them
lerae had to kiss lyt for 3 secs
haiwei had to play ping pong ping pong wif ls
lol n a couple more
lazy to mention
HAHA :D
well it was funny i mus say
n at abt 6am
everyone wanted to slp
i was in a ridiculous position
couldnt sleep at all
so after stonin for a while
i went to walk around e park wif des :)
lyt joined us later to go mac
n tht's about it
i mus kinda apologise for totalli screamin when ljj threw smth at mi
i noe it was aimin mi n i guess i over reacted
lol bt it was a natural reaction
no thought went into it
XD sorry
n so this chapter comes to a close!

Please stay away from mi
cas i get so irritated now
it's funny tht i feel so wierd
it's lyk we're neither here nor there
we're nt relli frens either
it's nt lyk b4 anymore
since it's hard to b frens

i think i'll jus stay away.
Goodbye :D

An additional note.

2008-10-27T03:33:00.000-07:00

You tell ppl to tag b4 leaving.
N u condemn them 4 taggin wad they feel.
It's no wonder i didn't tag.
=.="
I'm glad no one reads this.
I'm esp glad tht u don't.

Qin Dao

2008-10-27T03:08:00.000-07:00

ARGGGGGHHHHH
This is simply self torture.
Why, tell mi why, am I doing this to myself? :(
I'm wastin away deepavali doin my qin dao ppt
it's nt relli tht i relli hate doin wrk
bt pls pls pls
tell mi why mus it b in chi n eng?
I'm onli goin to humiliate myself if i present in chi
u ppl think all of us r supposed to b bilingual
yes, ur right
we r SUPPOSED to be
bt i'm nt :(
nt tht i dun wanna be,
bt im JUST NOT!
I've improved, I've stopped failing.
bt my oral is still ...
so why torture mi lyk this?
bt den again, I asked for it.
I applied to go for Qin dao instead of Malan
well, they wouldn't ask mi to present in their mother tongue, wuld they?
AH! SAVE ME.
Den i need to do another chi zuo wen today.
Nt tht im complaining.
That is a must.
But i wanna play gb :(
I'm abit addicted.
LOL.
But it'll die down.
Okay, was readin jud's blog.
Tot abt tht tym i read e other blog :/
I hav nth to say.
It's lyk well, no one bullies anyone in my class.
In rv, there's hardly any cases of tht either.
N I don't rmb actualli ignorin anyone when they tok to mi
unless they totalli irritate mi by tokin too much.
Please dun accuse n flame us on ur blog for smth we didn't do.
I didn't do anything to u.
N i'm nt even goin to flame u on my blog.
I'm nt even going to scold u in school.
I'm nt even goin to condemn u or ignore for cursin at me.
I'm nt.
I noe ur angry n havin a great tym cursin at us
bt pls open up ur eyes.
Dun blame everyone in the whole world,
b4 even lookin at wad's the truth.
Pls stop living in self denial,
n insisting tht everyone's against u.
Becas it's nt e case.
If u wanna insist tht it is tht way,
by all means.
Cas realli, if u want to torture urself lyk this,
no one is goin to care.
Not anymore.
Neither am I.
Good day to u.
I'm gonna do my zuo wen n play my gb.

"Were there murder done, perhaps, and never brought to light?
Abomination? Some secret blasphemy that stinks to Heaven?
Think on cause, man, and let you help me discover it."

When nothing's been done,
Then what is there to say?
Nothing.
When you're the one who did what you were told not to,
Then why are you saying anything?
No one knows.

"Let you counsel among yourselves;
think on your village and what may have drawn from heaven
such thundering wrath upon you all.
I shall pray God open up our eyes."
- The Crucible

In this case, it's just you.
Wake up.
And by the way, don't defame God please.
The middle finger was never given to pointed in this manner.

Thank you.
And I'm a buddhist, anyway.

GUNBOUND :)

2008-10-23T09:04:00.000-07:00

HAHA
I played gb again today
(lol im lame la i noe)
add mi ppl
imba1314
:) nice right?
i noe i shuld b piaing zuo wen
weekends i will D:
haha it was nt bad today
stupid lerae lim
totalli cheated mi again
nvr play AGAIN
i played wif kc, nj, tj n stella's bf
LOL
i hope no one reads this b4 i get killed :D
den tio own lyk siao
bt is cas today i totalli play lyk a noob
esp at first :(
sorry whenever u hav to grp wif mi n lose :(
haha mayb i will play 2moro :)
if i dun die frm dance :(
pray i dun :)
bt still hav horizon on sat :(
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
haiz.

EOYS OVER :)

2008-10-17T06:38:00.001-07:00

YAYE
Eoys are OVER
OFFICIALLY
n unofficially
whatever - it's jus OVER :)
anyway it's kinda screwed up bt
hu cares!
It's too late to do anything abt it :(
lolx
anyway went to eat sakae buffet today
wif oli, flabby bom bom, wah wah, ACK, jud jud, lyt n lerae :)
(ppl i almost typed smth, if u noe wad i mean *inside joke*)
totalli stuffed myself
LOLx ok dun worry im gonna diet after this
den sakae buffet is worth it ok, other than e fact tht u mus go in at EXACTLY 3
one min earlier they wont let u in :(
LOLx so giam siap
bt b4 tht we played DDR
lookin lyk idiots n screamin around as if our heads were chopped off
n we played expert mode wif 4 ppl playin
LOLx one step per person
n still failed :(
stupid oli's butt block my face LOLx
ok back to sakae
there's lyk one free red plate, free udon n desert
plus it was less than $20
not bad - right?

Ah the gayness, reminds me of something manly.

2008-09-26T08:48:00.000-07:00

It's a super random post.
It's light n fluffy, to get me away from e weight of the EOYS
Get e punt? :D
(which falls on my bday :( sadly)
anyway some of e ppl in my class were tokin abt smth manly today
can't say what cas
if u get e joke, it'll hurt ur stomach.
I laughed untill my eyes dropped out for 2 days alr.
HOW VERY MANLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~
HAHAHAHA. :D
if u dun get e joke, it'll hurt my karma.
Cas it's mean.
But if u find it funny it wont hurt my karma cas it'll make ur day :D
SMILE! Let's all be GAY!
Which brings me to e gay part.
Makes mi feel abit disgusted
n tht's an understatement.
GM.
Now i understand why ppl r so against GM-food.
(wif reference to english!)
Genetically modified food for ppl wif no general knowledge of it :D
It's hard to imagine what i was thinkin in e past
I think i mus hav been mad
Fate is funny.
But luckily fate is fair as fate is funny.
(wif reference from 30 days with my angel :D)
go read ppl it's a great book LOL)
I am now enlightened.
N i get to keep my dignity, my soul n my name :)
(wif reference to e lit book crucible HOHOHO)
I will not SELL MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL :O
Ok now tht I'm tokin abt GM
i mus say tht I condemn GM now.
I'm sorry.
But i can't help it.
N I'm sorry tht i took so long to realise too.
Ha.
Look on e bright side.
I condemn e whole LOG gang
(wif reference to math :P)
LM OM GM

O
l
L- M = G

Double bond to GM now. Chemical formular: LOGM
unsaturated fats. =.=" wif loads of OIL!
(wif reference to chem)
HAHA. I realised tht I'm makin a good link to everything.
Point: I condemn GM
Proof: evidence from above
Pertinence: GM relli GG ( gay game :P)
(wif reference to hist)
ZZZ.
N now i realised
tht I never relli got away from EOYs at all :(

GPA :(

2008-09-11T06:03:00.001-07:00

Everything is to be done in moderation.
And that's why schools moderate so much.

Haiz.
Got back GPA
i gt a 3.7
YAY?
No. Sorry bt NO.
Even tho it's a miracle my phy gt lyk a a1
(when it was lyk a b4 originalli?)
I feel so sick.
I look at my percentile for all my subs n feel lyk puking.
Not meaning to suan anyone.
But everythin's lyk hoverin from jus below average to jus above average.
Sickening.
I'm absolutely digusted by several of my marks.
Eng. Revoltin.
Lyk a B3. How disappointing.
It's no better than my chi.
However, i hav to say tht i was rather disgusted by my chi too.
Zhong he tian kong 8/20
YAY!
Totalli flunked it, I mus say.
Den my lit.
VOMITS in DISGUST.
A2. N well, i had a 15/25 for e sec essay?
tht's lyk e worst essay i hav ever written in my whole life
bt when i look at it
doesnt look in anyway less than a C to mi
wadeva.
Was pretty disappointed wif a lot of other things,
but to prevent ppl from coming with a hacker n choppin mi up,
I shall say nth.
Anyway pls dun say tht i hav no rights to b complainin
a drop in a GPA is a drop, n no excuse or reason can salvage my gpa.
Since i can make no excuse for myself,
All i can do is to complain tht I deproved.
It helps. A little.
Boo ~
Anyway it's not as tho a GPA of 3.7 is amazing.
It's above average, I'd give.
The school is moderatin lyk it's giving away presents on e eve of X'mas day.
Yeah, I don't mind more presents.
It won't hurt mi.
But it's onli making things even harder.
For now, a GPA of 3.7 is nth anymore.
It's onli slightly above norm.
N it seems that onli a GPA of 3.9 or more is anythin to tok abt.
How demoralisin.
Cries in frustration.
Which means for EOYS, it's no less than a 3.8 for mi.
Can't afford anything less if i wan my H3.
Bt i'm not even sure of wad i wanna take now.

Ppl listen up.
Don't take wad u hav interest in.
Take wad will take u far.
Be practical n down to earth pls.
Becas currently,
my fav sub has become bio.
A sub tht I lyked in e past,
but dun take now.

P.S. F MSN.
F for funny.
F for fabulous.
F for fantastic.
It refuses to let me sign in.
YAY.

Wadeva blah

2008-09-10T08:01:00.000-07:00

ZZZ eoys comin

n im nt even studyin

UER()@U$(@

den totalli screwed up this term

my gpa's dropped lyk a boulder frm the sky

all the way to hell

yay! :(

anyway im totalli dyin la

cant concentrate

nearly slpt durin hist

sorry sorry :(

was copyin from e bored

writin e word moderation

bt it became nicole ZZZ

n then i wrote lyk lovely n all rubbish wrds

lyk )U($&(*#%Y(#%

I think i'm goin mad

den MSN is lyk ZZZ

totalli dun wan let mi sign in

DU(W*$U@#*RJ(WJ

wadeva!

Blah. Whatever.

2008-08-31T07:43:00.000-07:00

Everytym I'm jus abt to pronounce my blog dead and incinerated,
I guess I jus feel lyk bloggin
Well whateva :)
Anyway, in case none of u ppl hu even read this blog actualli noticed,
this blog doesn't even hav a rating of PG
i suppose its G cas there isnt even one (U$)$23409ui34#$!@ vulgarity in it
:O
I'm so proud of myself!
:D
anyway i was surfin blogs again n lyk
well i read sum blogs :)
I was reminded of some stuff
Firstly, its so sad tht i spend my teacher's day slpin at home
at least i ate out wif shu hui :)
well, i guess wad's sad is tht i was kinda expectin to lyk go out wif my pri school frens
bt apparently as shufen has pointed out
n afiqah n i hav prob noticed,
no one seems to wanna go back anyway
O_o
lolx.
How sad it may b.
Then another blog reminded me of e performance.
This year n last year.
Last year was lyk out teacher's day dance
wif the kinda screwed up cheroing
n relli screwed up lip gloss that stuck all e hair on my face O_o
haha. Other than tht i think it was kinda fun
If my mem serves mi right. :/
Well, this year was even more screwed up.
I did this pair dance wif des
cas lerae had sore eyes n couldn't make it
boo ~
well it was jus mi, him n e teachers :(
so sad
n embarrassin!
AWWWWW
it would hav been cool if it was lerae n des
anyway
i 4gt e steps on stage
lol n i tot i could copy e teacher
apparently
she 4gt too LOLx
bt luckily i survived e dance
n can blog abt it today :D
haha.

short and random

2008-07-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

Okay i saw this on oli's blog

Your score on this personality test was 80%

Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural lead, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

Personality Quiz
Take More Quizzes

Glad to noe i scored higher
LOLx :)

Welcome back to school!!!

2008-07-02T06:05:00.000-07:00

Welcome back to school!
I mus say tht to myself.
I find myself dying n gettin more n more haggard each day.
WHOOPEE!
Den dun feel lyk doin wrk
yet i am so damn bored now.
Wasn't tht bad yesterday cas of viwawa
BORED BOARD :D

Today i nearly passed away durin history
ITS E ATMOSPHERE I SWEAR
I'm so sorry mr lim bt i was sleepin wif my eyes open
(nt literally ok? cas i havent mastered tht yet)
everythin went in n out straight away
lyk WHOOSH!
omg luckily he didn't ask mi anythin if nt i will hav no idea how to ans
i was copyin frm e screen to find out tht i was totalli writin GIBBERISH
lol! Dun even noe wad i was writin
Bt e moment i left tht room i was feelin much better
den we had e math competition
i teamed wif lerae, lyt, judjud n WAHWAH
HAHA :)
we WON!
OWNAGE man cas we totalli guessed sum qns
HAHAHAHA :D
we got this puzzle frm mr lee
- ONE PUZZLE
1 puzzle = 6 pieces = 5 ppl
so we took one each n wenrui gt 2
we're so nice sia :)
lol
there were 2 "www."s, 2 "scrambles."s n 2 "net"s
www. was taken by lyt n jud
mi n lerae got scrambles.
n wenrui got 2 nets
HAHAHAHA
www.scrambles.net :)

It's funny when people who had so much to talk about
have nothing to say
And people who never ever talked much seem so close
I guess when everything gets so complicated
When its all over
It's hard to even stay as friends
And when it's so simplistic
Even the slightest little things
Can make your friendship become as solid as
A 12- carat DIAMOND :) :) :)

haha :P

I'm not gonna survive this =.="

2008-06-25T05:42:00.000-07:00

Tell me.

What's the difference between a blog and a diary?

Nothing.
Except one is private n e other is not.
Toot.
But I've realised,
that everything in my diary is happy and sweet
n almost everything in my blog is meant to be thrown away and forgotten.

So put them together to get the full truth. YAYNESS!
1 + 1 = 2
But then again, I onli hav one life.

Anyway, school has onli been opened for such a short period of time
n i'm dying :(
I'm bored too :(
n now i dun even hav anything to do when i use the com.
Not even msn entertains me.
Boo ~
And school was okay today.
Youth day performance was okay too.
Didn't get to watch e beat box n rock band.
ZZZ. Oh well.
Then i went to eat with olivia n lerae.
Lerae n I totally ranted n complained to oli
lol!
One million to the person hu can guess abt wad.
Toot. O_o
That was rather entertaining. 3.5 stars from me.
Complaining can be entertaining.
So now u noe how boring life is.

The colours in the world of my childhood had been blinding.
The colours turned pastel and sweet as time passed slowly.
They continued to fade slowly.
I must have failed to notice.
Because there always seemed to be at least a colour that brightened it all.
And now, my world has faded into black and white.

Now i need the colour back in it.

LAST holi dance pract

2008-06-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

U will NOT believe wad a fantastically devoted blogger i am
n this proves onli one thing
i am damn free
n damn bored
WHOOPEE! :(
im so bored i could eat a cow now
e bored board ppl r laggin lyk ultimates n refuse to reply mi
n so im SUPER ULTRA BORED

ok i didn't get to dance for e whole week
n syf i think im jus cuttin in halfway =.="
anyways nth much to tok abt for CCA this whole week
politics over
hahaha :)
bt alotta ppl quittin :(
(best buddy still there tho LOLz)
anyways my knee is gettin better so i'd b dancin in no tym
YAY?
lol cas i think im gonna b a pig if i dun start dancin soon :(
even tho durin liang shen today
my waist is smaller :) :) :)
YIPPEEEE ~
bt i think e person anyhow measure one
mine is lyk SMALLER THAN ERJIE'S???
SIAO O_o
n i broke e record for e smallest neck :)
hohoho :D shu hui still down there sayin her neck very thin
ok den i went home after dance
no horizon for mi
cas i can't dance anyway
n it was tirin being a professional remote DJ
(NO, sittin on chairs does NOT make mi TIRED, employee!)

den i was so bored tht i went blogsurfin
read lyk alot alot alot of blogs
wanted to tag crap on e blogs
but i decided to preserve my image :)
lol lyk i hav much (thanks to dance XD)
read haiwei's blog
so let's tok abt wad if's as usual
i used to think abt wad if i did this in e past
wad if i did tht
will my life end up different?
well, bt now when i think abt it
everything happens for a reason
even tho it may seem to be saddening, disappointing n downright unlucky
it might actualli b a blessin in disguise
so ppl, always keep ur hopes high :)
dun ever lose faith in fate, life, e ppl u love n URSELF!
follow ur heart, mind n soul n u will find ur destiny :D
so now i hav decided to think
wad if this happens in the future
den wad
will i do to make my life different? :)

There are alot of thoughts i'm having right now
There are alot of things that i want
There are alot of people i miss
There are alot of wishes i have ungranted
Maybe this is why i've been feeling so empty inside for this lifetime of mine
but -
There are alot of thoughts i could be having right now
There are alot of things i have
There are alot of people i love
There are alot of wished i have that WILL be granted
Maybe this is why i work to fill myself
because -
There is so much that i know i will get in this lifetime of mine :)

If you tell me this glass of water is half empty
and ask me to fill it up for you
I will tell you this glass of water is half full
and fill it up
- for myself :D

Maybe i'm nt fated to be a dancer...

2008-06-16T08:06:00.000-07:00

OK today sls came back
celebrates!
LOL
bt its temporary onli
den we danced
damn tiring
lalala ~
skip :)
den e last tym we dance feng qi yun yang
i strained my knee
n fell :( :( :(
den didn't get to pract for syf
might nt gt in cas of this :(
n it isn't even my fault
oh well.
sls seems to make it look lyk my fault
blame it on my bad luck
thanks man :(
wang lao say see when i get better
mayb he will pai mi in :)
I LOVE WANG LAO :)
he's e best teacher in the WORLD <3
I mean it :)
lol anyway i wasn't e onli casualty
poor pei yao (rulang guy)
oso hurt himself la
to all injured dancers lyk him n lerae n myself:
GET WELL SOON :)
den im nt too upset now
mayb i will b if i relli dun get in
bt oh well.
it's relli nt my fault
at least i can say tht its nt cas my standard is lackin
mayb im jus nt meant to b a dancer afterall
I'll jus quit if i cant dance syf anyway
gonna join bowlin or student editorial or shooting
maybe it'll b better for me :)
hopefully
now my knee hurts lyk ultimate :(
bt im nt going to die dun worry :)
I'm strong! :)
i died when e doc helped mi tui n do acupuncture tho :(
hehe anyways gonna make my painful way back 2moro
(struggles :( OUCH!)
anyway thanks ppl for showing ur concern
i appreciate it
realli :)
thanks ppl!

I'm not going to blame fate for whatever happens in my life
Everything happens for a reason
Maybe this is my destiny
Even if it isn't
Hope and faith will guide me to it :)

Let's pray and wish upon a wishing star!

friday the 13th :(

2008-06-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

today is friday the 13th

we had dance 2dae

well, it ain't tht bad

jus tht i too long nvr dance le

can't stretch, balance or coordinate anymore :(

bt it can't beat e imba dance camp :( :( :(

not tht it was tht bad

e main camp nt bad la :)

quite fun :) :) :)

jus tht there was "abit" of discrimination, starvation, disrespect, mockery etc.

by some "great fantastic absolute beauty wif early menopause" :)

tht's all!

anyways back to today

(i can blurt everything out cas so few ppl even come here!)

its jus tht some unhappy things happened

tho u can't relli pin point it at anyone n jus push e blame lyk tht

bt if u think of it,

it's kinda unfair to judge ppl by jus how they "look"

bt i guess we've all been livin in an unfair world

so we jus need to jia you jia you jia you

n pray tht 2moro will b better!

I'm kinda strugglin in all this too

i guess i'm jus nt e most talented dancer in the world

i'm fat

slow

n can neither coordinate nor rmb e steps

:( :( :(

I'm sorry :(

I'll try harder

haiz

den tht's abt it

let's jus hope tht this problem doesn't arise again

cas afterall,

there's onli one friday e 13th right???

it can't get any worse

then it can onli get better! YAY! :P

lalala ~

I find myself lookin in the mirror more nowadays

why? nt cas im zi lian

cas i need to slim down man!

lol

I relli think so

cas dance jus keeps remindin mi abt this every single day of my life

:( :( :(

thanks man

bt other than tht,

i guess i need to do some self "reflection"

lol

so i shall diet -

1/4 of a burger for me O_o

no more, no less

can i hav more than 5 mins to eat pls???

It took me a long time to realise

it takes only a smile to make me smile

a joke to make me laugh

a compliment to make me blush

and a word from you to make my day

but it took me only a moment to realise

as easily as you could make my day

- you would break it

I love shows n drama series

for its e onli way i can continue believein in love

Random comment cas

wo de ye man nai nai is nice! :)

Evil Babies Outing :)

2008-06-03T07:48:00.000-07:00

okay, I went blog surfin today n decided to post anyhow
First I must tell u all abt my progress on my homework:
it went frm good to great to bad to terrible to standstill
YIPPEE! :(
I totally can't make myself do all those remainin :(
boo :(
then i mus announce tht i watched angela's concert
LOLx no i'm nt showing off :)
It was nt bad cas at least she sings quite well
even though I think luo zhi xiang's concert nicer cas he dances better :)
btw den i mus say tht there was this female dancer wif AWESOME SIX PACS
I could see frm wherever i was man! :O
Totally cool! (oogles <3) I wish i had pacs too :(
I dun even think i hav abs - DAMINATION :(
I think i'm gettin so fat tht i'll hav six flabs soon
:( :( :(

enough of digressin
now I mus proudly announce tht we hav had one of the most successful -
evil babies outing :)
9/10 evil babies went
onli no yi hui :(
bt half way thru we got mr replacement yihui HAHA :O
anyway we practically onli did 3 things
eat, bowl and play arcade
first we ate a swensen's :D
lol totally broke now
then we were SUPPOSED to play laser quest
bt there was this little boy matthew throwin a birthday party
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW
so we couldn't play cas it'll onli b available at lyk 8 pm???
den we tot we could play pool - only to realise tht it was not pool as in e game pool
bt e swimmin pool =.="
kena cheated sia :(
so in e end we played bowlin
CEL was totally a pro sia
lol at least for e first round (which was a warm up for our real match! lol)
den next round was competitive
me, sx, cel, shu hui n erjie
VS
lerae, lyt, mil n hw
we took e average to make it fair
:) n my team won YAYness :)
bt i mus admit we were damn bimbotic LOL
n i managed to get 78 thanks to my strike n extra round :)
GPA of 4.0 YAY :)
lolz
den we went JE arcade
we played e 3 button game
me, cel n mil vs sx, hw, lyt vs sh, ej, lerae
:) my team won 17/25 of e matches :)
YAYNESS :D
den me n shixiao tried playin e demo for e taiko drum master
LOL yeah damn despo sia HAHA :)
den we watched this pro pro guy play this harder version of dance dance rev
PRO SKILL :D
damn cool la
I wish i could play tht well <3

okay then tht's abt it
I dun realli wanna tok abt how bad the service standard in singapore has become
(OH NO! I said it :O) -> LOLx
den back to e fact i was blog surfin
went to read my classmate's blogs, dancers' blogs, rv frens blog's, online fren's blogs
as well as pri school frens' blogs
n i can't help bt to think how long i havent met dem
miss ya all :)
jia youz for O lvl's okay?

I've been wishin on a wishin star
I've been wishin for so many things i can't even seem to rmb them all
But maybe
Just maybe
I should just wish that I would happy n content wif what i hav
- what about you?

DAVID COOK ROCKS :)
you will always be my baby <3

O_o

2008-05-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

ok lets start off today wif...
DAMN IT I GT SCOLDED
for sayin one sentence to oli
ONE SENTENCE WILL DIE AH
bt luckily i didnt gt caught for anything else
RIDICULOUS
bt im nt gonna curse or scold vulgarities
i'm mature so
instead, I shall tell u a story :)
I was inspired by the army of ants i saw today

once upon a tym there was this ant colony
there were many many ants
den one day when the ants were on duty
one ant heard an announcement n said smth to the other ant
the other ant laughed
n a commando ant pulled em out
n punished em
den e commando was too bored or smth
it went to pull out other ants to catch them for havin long legs, shiny bodies n all tht
n asked em what they were tryin to show
bt e point is dey were tryin to show nth
one of the ants tht was caught was tokin stood der n listened to e announcements
e other ant asked a qn abt e announcement
n then both of em got punished again
YAY! bt e point was tht another 2 commandos were tokin too, right next to em =.="
the end...

ok i gt back my report card
lol
i gt 3.9 :)
yay? Not really
cas its all jus moderation
everyone moderate lyk mad
so not much point, is there?
RESULTS INFLATION

It's funny when u spend ur life wishin for smth on a wishin star
n after u get it by chance
You realise tht it isn't exactly wad ur wishin for
n tht u've been wishin to b able to earn urself smth better

Cross Country 2moro :(

2008-05-20T07:16:00.001-07:00

ZZZ
I've finally decided to post
Why, u ask?
i shall list the reasons :) thank mi haha
1) OLI CHIN ASKED MI TO (I'm so nice to u see?)
2) I've fin my story :) HAHAHA
ppl if u wanna read tell mi I'll send it to u :)
It's realli realli nice :)
3) then i read lixin's blog
lol nth against u bt...
PLS I FEEL SO SAD ABT MY GPA NOW THANKS
I can't believe my eng got a freaking A2
:( :( :( :(
IT MAKES ME SO DAMN SAD
then my e lit got freaking A2 as well
:( :( :( :(
IT MAKES ME SO DAMN FRIGGIN ANGRY
WHY??? Its cas ppl impose their views on mi
N say tht my views are wrong
so hu r u to say tht?
pls go watch dead poet's society
It'll convey a GOOD msg to U thankyew
Next is my math
freak A1 bt it totally sucked
all careless :( :( :( :(
dun get me started on my sciences
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
I can jus drown in tears alr
SS is horrible too
29/40 :( :( :( :(
I missed my A1 mark
I feel so disappointed in myself
Bt i can't do anythin
MA DE
lol
I shall go absorb wenrui bunny boy's intelligence :)
lol watch mi get 3.8 next term :)
HAHAHAHA
(self entertaining!)
4) I totally died today
I think I'm gonna die of blood loss
LOL
ok sounds wrong
DEN STILL HAV PE N DANCE
I died
Ran lyk shit bt so slow
Dance lyk mad bt still so lan
lol so chan :(
5) 2moro is cross country :( :( :( :(
I can jus go kill myself ALR
lol
If i get 149/150
I will eat the paper up
lol i SWEAR
WISH MI E BEST
tht I dun die 2moro
N I GET A DISPLACEMENT OF ZERO
lol
hohohoh
tht's wad mr lee said

Aiyah lazy to count
ONLI MAKE ME FEEL SADDER
:( :( :( :(
(drowns in tears)
lol I guess i'll get over it
dun worry i wont die :)
lol
(CHEERS!)

Good things never last ~ Aaron's sayin
Dun ask hu's aaron HAHA :)

Haizzz.

2008-04-23T05:46:00.000-07:00

haiz.
ok.
To start off the post in a lighter note,
I've finally linked e ppl who hav linked mi 10 million years ago!
:) hahaha FINALLY
ppl lyk Laetita, Judith, Kelvin n Olivia :)
hahaha then nth much today
phy remedial was cancelled tho :)
HAHAHAHA
bt hav make up on fri :(
oh well.
Then mr lee didn't come today :)
lol nt tht i hate him la! jus an extra break does mi fine :)
bt i DID my math K?
Jus tht i was abit stupid today :(
YES, for all those hu dunno,
I'm AN INTELLECTUAL on most days :)
haha!
den we gt back lit too :)
me n olivia gt 21/25 :) :) :)
the only thing this term that has made me proud :)
er wait.
it should b a sad face :( :( :(
cas e rest totalli sucked man :(
ZZZ. :(
then we had house meetin today
oh well.
so ZZZ, cas there was so NO QI FEN
then im runnin competitive AGAIN :(
nt lyk im a gd runner :(
NAPFA was onli 2.4km
n tht alr killed mi :(
i ran lyk 12 min plus
3.2km will get mi kill, reborn n onli to b killed AGAIN :(
WHY DO THIS TO MI? :(
hahaha then fran, olivia n ZEMONG are house captains HAHA!
3 frm our class leh :)
so proud of em HAHA! so lucky of them to zhong :)
den went back wif lerae n olivia :)
haha toked abt OBS n gossip all tht la
tho there is NO FREAKIN GOSSIP nowadays even :(
so pathetic :(
ppl pls get into sum relationship n tell mi so i can hav gossip :)
HAHAHA :D
ok den i got home
study :(
study :(
n fell aslp :(
n i still cant rmb all tht i've studied e past few days :(
pls i wanna score well :(
i'm tryin my best :(
to try to b a good mugger :(
pls pls pls
let's wish upon a wishin star :)

haizzz midyears :(
i'm waiting for it to b over!
den we can crash at other ppl's house n gossip n play!
:)
come onnnnnn ~
damn.
It's still nt over :(

btw ppl
whenever my msn nick is some kind of emo thing
it's jus for fun la! :)
cas it sounds sumthing lyk frm a movie
so COOL ~
so pls dun b alarmed
its nt wad u think it is :)

20 smileys
23 frowns
haiz :( i've alr minimised e frowns :(
When i think of u
wad do you think i'm thinkin abt?

Come on.
I told u i'm thinkin of U already! :)

But there's always tht someone else :)
lol were u readin my post carefully?

What am I doing?

2008-04-16T06:01:00.000-07:00

This is lyk one of the days where i spend
2/5 my day in school &
3/10 my day in dreamland where i snuggle in bed n sleep
So. You ask
Where does e other 3/10 of the day go to?
and i reply
hell :(
bt relli i dun mean it :)
n u noe
cas pretty much school's abt there :(
I find myself thinkin
and thinkin
and thinkin summore
and u noe wad?
I dun even noe why on earth im thinkin :(
when it pretty much doesn't help :(
cas alright alr. I noe. I noe.
I'm supposed to b doin all my homewrk
I'm supposed to b muggin for midyears
I'm supposed to b exercisin n practicing for dance
I'm supposed to b controllin my food intake
But i'm nt doin any of tht :(
let's rate how bad it is :)
homewrk - :( 1 star
muggin - :( :( :( :( :( 5 stars
practicin - :( :( :( 3 stars
dietin - :( :( :( :( :( 5 stars
ROAR! i'm jus tryin my best to depress myself, aren't I?
Say no :)
even tho i noe it's a yes :(
n i seem quite gd at it
lalala. bt today was a gd day.
Rather. Cas it was slack :)
anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZEMONG :D
HAHAHAHAHA.
ok i mus say it was a good day den :)
n how was e newpaper chocs frm me n jud? :)
den i went back wif lerae n olivia :)
IMMEDIATELY CHIONG HOME
so i can slp :)
den me n olivia ate ramlee burgers :)
yeah yeah i noe
I'm SUPPOSED TO BE DIETING :(
so now u noe why it gt a 5 star rating? :(
lyk wad my aunt said
this is everyone's dream diet
can eat icecream, burgers and sweets all tht
LOLx
I'll suggest this diet to everyone :)
hu isn't intendin on losing weight :(
n i'll be e "DREAM DIET" ambassedor
YAY :)
u think i'll get paid for tht? :)
NOT :(
and pls dun even bother askin why :(

den i've realised
tht i'm a super SLOW BLOGGER :(
see
i lag in postin
n i lag while postin too
der goes 1/24 of my day
NOTE TO SELF: I'm NOT supposed to be bloggin
lolx :)
It's nt as if i'm able to overcome my inertia of doin nth so easily

damn it. I've realised how long it took for me to realise tht :(

14 smileys :)
26 frowns :( stupid ratin system took up 14/26 LOLx
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
*types 14 to balance it out*
HAHA i'm childish i noe
bt if u're readin this
ur worse!!! HAHAHA :)
ok pls dun stop readin my blog :(
I'm sry
and i've finally realised why my inertia is so great
because things of large masses hav great inertia :(
boo.

BLOGGIN SPREE!!!

2008-04-09T07:07:00.001-07:00

wow
I'm on a bloggin spree leh :)
too much time
once in a lifetime :)
Anyway, relli nth happened today!!!
oh well. (chomps on apple)
do u expect smth to happen everyday?
Sian the moment i think abt tests
ROAR! can die la :(
all FLUNKED :(
i screwed all of em
n they're gona come back to screw mi!!!!
:( :( :( (chomps on apple somemore)
AHHHH!!!! the horror
N i think i'm gonna get em back 2moro
boo! :(
Today was slack :)
n tht's a good thing (chomps chomps)
so relli - wads the point of havin an interestin life
when ur sufferin?
answer is:
No point! lolx
that wasn't a trick question anyway
My life has been as dry as a desert
(alliteration + metahor HAHAHAHA)
I dun even hav gossip to fuel mi on
so if u hav any
PLS TELL MI! :) :) :)
HAHAHAHAH :)
(chomps again)

Apples are healthy - right?
Tips to lose weight:
drink green tea
It helps ppl to lose weight :)
drinkin coconut oil helps too :)
really! bt mus be virgin coconut oil la
n dun drink cold drinks after eatin
my fren told mi tht :)

...
yeah la
i noe its not too convincin
cas when u look at me
it totally proves otherwise :(

10 smileys
7 frowns - another happy day doing nth!
so - wads the point of doing anything at all? :D
The answer is:
No point! and once again, it wasn't a trick question :)

Lalala =D

2008-04-07T08:19:00.000-07:00

lalala :D
actually there's nothing to post today
But oh well.
Jhosy told mi to post more often :)
hehe i'm so obedient
Come back to reality -
i've made a magnificent discovery
there's finally NO test this week! :)
YAY!!! (Cheers and celebrates)
What else can i say? One week to pia finish Apollo Justice :)
it's really quite a good DS game
Give it a try :)
It was a really slack day today :D
At least for mi, it was
too bad for Olivia and Hui Yee - choose to pon the wrong day :(
i feel so sad for you :( (it breaks my heart)
Anyway, back to my diet plan
I've tried -
And FAILED :(
I didn't eat during second break :)
But i went home and ate:
Mango puff (those with the real mango mousse YUM!)
:( okay that wasn't supposed to happen
Twisties :(
That wasn't supposed to happen too :( :(
Durian Cake (Those real D24 kind you know)
That was totally NOT supposed to happen
:( :( :(
This is never gonna work out
Not to mention that i ate goreng pisang for breakfast
:( :( :( :(
Feeling alil heaty now :(
bt the food tasted nice :) (oops! :( sorry sls)
Then i watch wei wo du zhun on channel U
i DIED :)
lol it was er, funny :D
when it obviously wasn't supposed to be :P
And when they played the "sexy" music
reminded me of a just for laughs Gag
lol :) where a male police man had long hair and acted totally gay
HAHAHA act sexy :)
similar music :) super funny cause i can picture him sweeping his hair and shaking his head
and the people in the show were
a lil bit sexier than him :D
hahaha :) jus a tiny lil bit
TINY lil bit
One gal did e BRITNEY POLE HAHAHAHA :)
with the Britney music and all
nt meaning to b mean
bt i laughed lyk mad :)
I'm sorry :(
It was worse than Britney tho haha
Britney in slow-mo LOLx :)
Once again so sorry :(
my family watched, laughed
and immediately after that

- we changed channel :)
hehe! :D

My ideal height: 163cm :)
My ideal weight: 45kg :)
My current height: 159cm :(
My current weight: 10kg - come on, you didn't think i'd really tell you ppl right?

20 Smileys :)
19 Frowns :) - today's a happy day for me!!! <3

It's a simple life for a simple girl
who lives by $ = :)
jk :) it's much more than that :)
Complicatedly simple, simply complicated
But life's a complication! To put it simply :) F.F.D.H

It's a yellow slip day!

2008-04-02T06:36:00.001-07:00

Lalala!!!
No one's gonna read this :)
(so if u read this - pls tag! hohoho)
I decided to blog after going on a reading spree!
Okay, today my mummy woke mi up 1 and 1/2 hrs late
lol e scene was ridiculous cas i was ridiculously happy when i learnt of it
HAHAHA! first tym i got a yellow slip :)
SUCH EXCITEMENT! whoopee
bt e ride to school was terrible :(
peak period leh, I was dyin n squished
if onli i could lose weight lyk this :(
den hu would hav thought tht i would get scammed
there was a performance in e mornin n i missed it
n all e lessons were pushed back :(
wasted my first late day away
Why...
I should have slept more :(
Den e stupid NE quiz started at 4pm
when we finish school at 2pm :(
scam mi of my tym :(
boohoo :(
bt in e end i went to eat at mac wif tan yan tong, lerae n yiling! :)
all e way to vivo for Mc Flurry :)
which actually is a scam of money! Scammed again :(
N its makes mi fat too :(
I'm nvr gonna lose weight!!!
So sorry shu lao...
I'm nvr gonna b e skinny dancer u need us to b :(
Then lerae ate mc chicken! LOLx
N we all shared a large fries
then there was this kind lady hu gave us ALL her fries :)
It's amazing how such a small act of kindness can relli brighten up one's day :D
Even tho it makes mi sin even more :(
Den we gossiped alot :) Mwahahaha it's so funny
n we ran back to school cas we were late :(
hopefully tht burnt some fats...
Den i'm slackin now :(
i'm supposed to b workin hard
I'm so sorry :(
I'll try my best to becum e mugger u need me to be
I'm tryin to try :(
why isit so hard...

Let's work hard together :)

you make my day bearable
And I'll wish upon my lucky star
That everything for us will be well
Dreams for mi near, reachable and not
- so far

If i die 2moro, attend my funeral :(
there'll b loads of candy :)

8 smileys :)
17 frowns :( - learn to see tht it isn't that great afterall

2moro will be better! :)
one more smiley to e list! F.F.D.H

MERRY X'MAS!!!

2007-12-25T07:12:00.000-08:00

Merry X'mas ppl!!!
HAHAHA
i jus slept today away cas i'm a lil sick
hehe
anyway i'll do serming survey now... =D
i'm nice
01. Full Name: Nicole Carmen Tan Yi
02. Name backwards: iY naT nemraC elociN
03. Meaning of name: Victory Song... lol really its true
04. Nickname: Alot sia... Niki, Nick, Coco, Colcol, Tan Yi... Prawn, pig... dun wan sae le... XD
05. Screen Name: forevafatedestiny, empty dreamer, Darkness Lecion
06. D.O.B.: 03/10/1992
07. Place of Birth: singapore
08. Nationality: singaporean
09. Current Location: choa chu kang
10. Star Sign: Libra
11. Religion: buddhist
12. Height: ZZZ... from 157 to 159 cm... i wanna b 160cm... stuppid sm.... so tall liao XD
13. Weight: I'm not gonna disclose. really.
14. Shoe Size: how should i noe??? my mum buys my shoes 4 mi =DD
15. Hair Colour: black
16. Eye Colour: black
17. Who do you look like: ME!!! =DD
18. Innie or Outtie: OUTTIE MAN!!!
19. Lefty or Righty: Lefty
20. Gay, Straight, Bi or Others: er... straight - maybe BI??? lolx
21. Best Friends: hav alot eh... Lerae, Judith, Yantong, Chiou Yih, Zhi Ying, Liting, Elena, afiqah, Natasha, Shu fen & Raine
22. Best Friend you trust most: Judith =DD
23. Favourite Pals: Judith, Sm, des, EVIL BABIES!!!
24. Best Friend of opposite sex: oooh, alot =D TJJ, bert, SM n des =DD
25. Best Buddies: Those listed above
26. Boyfriend or Girlfriend: Girlfriend Judith and lao po shi xiao
27. Crush: <3
28. Parents: mummy and daddy
29. Worst Enemy: eh... haha
30. Favourite online guy: Vergil =DD n my slave hehe
31. Favourite online girl: ooh... tht's a hard q... Jud?
32. Craziest friend: ELENA - OMG you'll nvr find another person hu pranks calls n eats laksa wif ribena
33. Advice Friend: =DD ME????
34. Loudest Friend: LERAE. OBV.
35. Person you cry with: i rarely cry =DD nicole is a happy gal =DD
36. Any sisters: SONIA =DD
37. Any brothers: secret brother =D
38. Any disease: eh... sensitive skin...
40. Pager: er... hu still uses tht now???
41. Personal phone line: hp lo.
42. Phone: nokia n70
43. Lave Lamp: ???
44. Pool or hot tub: hot tub - this is the life =DD
45. A car: LIMO - ok tht's wad i wan...
46. Your personality: i'm nice... n too long to list out e rest...
47. Driving: sadly to say... onli gamin lo. but when i grow older - i'll get a chauffer =DD
48. Room: MY BEDROOM =DD
49. What's missing: I dun wanna know =/ tho i wan my lifesiza $1000 doll frm japan =/
50. School: Kranji then rv
51. Bed: COMFY =DD
52. Relationship with parents: good =DD
53. Believe in yourself: 100%... faith fate destiny n hope =DD
54. Believe in love at first sight: NO. It's stupid infactuation.
55. Good listener: yeah...
56. Get along well with parents: YEAH =DD
57. Save e-mail convos: er... no???
58. Pray: Yeah, n i believe in it.
59. Believe in reincarnation: hmm...
60. Make fun of people: Sumtyms. but usualli i'm kiddin - i dun wan retribution
61. Like to talk on the phone: NO PPL DUN CALL MI
62. Want to get married: depends - if i can find my bai ma wang zi
63. Like to drive: no. i wan my chauffer.
64. Motion Sickness: Yeah, on e bus sumtyms
65. Eat stem of broccoli: should b =D
66. Eat chicken with fork: depends
67. Dream in colours: yepp
68. Type with your fingers on home role: ???
69. Sleep with stuff animals: Yeah =DD so cute
70. Next to you: table yea...
71. On the walls of your room: posters n calendar plus mirror n map lol
72. On your mousepad: Er my mouse???
73. Dream car: LIMO
74. Dream date: my date payin for everythin as i shop =DD
75. Dream honeymoon spot: somewhr special
76. Dream husband or wife: Alex =DD
77. Bedtime: depends man... i can slp anytime
78. Under your bed: nth
79. Single most important question: Er...
80. Bad time of the day: 3.33am hehe
81. Your worst fear: feeling of fear
82. The weather: er... normal
83. Time: 12.05 am
84. Date: 26 dec 07
85. Best trick did on someone: dunno eh...
86. Theme song: eh???? lalala...
87. Hardest thing about growing up: doin wads right
88. Funniest experience: HAHAHA
89. Scariest experience: dreams are scary... LOL
90. Silliest thing you have ever said: man... i'll be silly to put it on
91. Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex: tht's disgustin man...
92. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: er...
93. Worst feeling: feeling empty n confused
94. Best feeling in the world: Being me =DD

the world is cumin to an end...

2007-12-11T00:40:00.000-08:00

The world is cumin to an end!!!
hahaha
ok i jus lyk sayin tht
bt u'll nvr noe
the world might jus end 2moro
anyway
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DES =D
bloggin abt yesterday...
cas i fell aslp la haha
it was great la
pls go read serming's blog
HAHAHA
too lazy to write
n i'm advertising for him la
how great it is to b my fren LOLx
main point
wasn't it a great surprise???
nicole is always right
HAHAHA
ppl u wont regret becumin my fren =DD
den slept e whole mornin away
woke up, ate
n slept again ZzZ
wastin tym away...
hmmhmm
it's a happy endin for u all
=DD kinda at least =/
emo ppl in the world
i noe why u r emoin
u can tell mi all abt it
i'll try my best to giv u a happy endin...
hehe =)
bt honestly
i dun believe in a happy endin for myself
bt i'm nt down abt it =DD
nth's gonna happen tht will change my life
i dun need it to anyway
it's great the way it is =D
wad's meant to b will b
=D i'll let fate n destiny decide for mi
i dun wanna think anymre
cas i dun wan anythin to happen
really
hope n faith
go together wif fate n destiny
n i hav it all
bt good things nvr last =/
so i'll enjoy it when its here

I dun expect a happy endin...

totalli goin out man...

2007-12-06T04:52:00.001-08:00

OK we went out today =DD
met everyone bt junyuan man...
HAHAHA
nvm anyway...
We did e usual things again
gd thing we nvr seem to get bored =D
first thing we went westmall KFC (again)
i ate shrooms (again)
then we went to play arcade (again)
tokyo wars =DD (again)
and E PUCK GAME (again)
ppl i nvr get bored of it
All the excitement, fun, thrill n VIOLENCE
mayb it's onli mi being violent tho...
HAHAHA
my teammate was haiqel la
he pro
lol
we won 3/4 rounds =DD
then we went bowlin (again)
i totally sucked e first round =/
lyk thirty plus points onli =/
boohoo
then we had e ballerina n kickin leg (hahaha managed to get u to do it eh? =P)
second round i OWNed man =DD
hahaha hundred ten plus
=DD three strikes n 1 spare
hehe
then we had a truth or dare session at northvale (again)
totally crap
=DD
and CRASHED at ELENA'S HOUSE =DD
played twister (man it turned out quite wrong)
pictionary
cranium
XBOX 360 =DD
it was fun man
relli missed u all
love u all loads <3
man i sound les
HAHAHA
can't believe hafta wait 4 nxt year dec
another thing to countdown to
hope we'll b free e cumin june
=DD
anyway i'm so free this holiz
ppl hu missed this
can we hav another outin???
man anyone can ask mi to go out n hav fun oso
i'm boredd
HAHAHA
okok
miss u all =)
n miss u too <3
n countin down ppl
COUNTING...
man this sucks =/

i'm goin out 2moro!!!

2007-12-05T05:22:00.000-08:00

Wee...
goin out tomorrow =D
wif my pri skool frens!!!
u hav no idea how much i'm lookin forward to this =DD
hahaha
gonna meet natasha,afiqah, elena, raine, shufen,haiqel, jun yuan
n mingshin (tho i relli dun look forward to seein him cas i keep seein him anyway)
HAHAHA
too bad ppl lyk kenneth n samuel can't go
okok...
can't wait
well, strictly speakin
this week's activities has been keepin my occupied
lyk sat i went xiao zhu's concert
veri nice =DD
sun i went to my grandma's hse
mon went to buy des' and yant tong's present wif lerae, serming, edison n judith =DD
tues i went to buy again =P
lol i've wrapped it
nt very nice sorry XD
wed is todae
spent e whole day writin my story and watchin the ring
nt scary one =.=
lol
so i guess it wasn't so bad for me la
countin down to alotta things
waitin =DD
haha

OMG!!! i'm bloggin!!!

2007-11-16T08:34:00.000-08:00

this is mad!!!
hahaha
i'm finally bloggin =D
it's a dead blog (no one's readin =DD)
after 5 torturing practs!!!
i could hav died
aching lyk mad
hav 15 bruises in total
those on my hip n knees are ridiculous!!!
ask other dancers mannn =/
gt scolded by sls again...
think he hates mi now hahaa...
wee... dun care!!! i love ms leong n wanglao <3
holis are finally relli startin!!!
yay ppl!
to all e ppl i toked to online todae:
i mus really love u to do tht
i'm dyin postin now =D
n u noe hu u all r
hahaha =D
bt i missed out sum ppl
nvm =D
n tqq haiwei <3 for e chocolates!!!
love u sis <3
n goin skool was fun =P
hahaha
cant wait for e chalet
cas relli nth to do le =D
bt dun wan go buy bbq stuff XD
n props ppl
nid go get e fans fixed =/
bt nvm =D we rock!!!
all 6 of us haha
esp e shu hui hu kena tortured wif mi =D
n mr Nj hu ask u nvr count e fans
shixiao has one yellow fan =/
hahaha bt wont blame my lao po =D
den toked to judith online =D
bet u're readin!!!
hahaha
<3
abit confused now...
dun wan think abt it
wads meant to b will b
hahaha

N love J 4eva!!! ( pls dun over read it ppl, esp des )
btw i'm nt a pig...
I'm a MASTER!!!
OMG... my dear slave
hope ur NOT readin
which i bet ur nt =DD
haha
wad a long post

<3 miss ya too...

SYF day

2007-04-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

lol
todae was SYF!!!
Wee...
it turned out betta than expected
hopefully we get GWH
anyway i watched alot of performances
one word: OWNAGE!!!
WEE!!!
anyway i didnt get to watch Nanyang or Region
the two which i relli wanted to =(
but i met enrui n serene!!!
hahaha
hope all e ppl i noe get GWH too!!!!
=)
then wang lao shi is e best!!!
even though he suaned mi two tyms todae
he wore e shirt we bought
n he praised mi!!!
well not relli but oh well
HEARTS lol
anyway
thanks all u supported us
shu lao shi, wang lao shi, ms leong, all e teachers, seniors, dance ppl n friends
n thanks 4 e chocolate ppl!!!

SYF

2007-04-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

SYF is tomorrow!!!
Lookin forward to it....
Yeah! We must get GWH!
CONGRATS TO zhui lang!!!
Feeling quite happy todae...
Even though i hav FAKE scandals
Cause i dun care abt those
anyway... They r UNTRUE so hahaha
dun trust them
Back to SYF
I'm super excited
Wanna buy red bull...
n sweets to perk everyone up
but no tym
sad
Anyway...
Good luck to all e other dances too!
especially St. Margrets, Nanyang, Region, Kent Ridge and Deyi...
Jia You!
especially to En Rui, Danna, Samuel n all e ppl i noe in SYF!
Btw congrats to e ppl who got GWH!!!
Anyway, to all e sad stuff tht happened n all those involved
dun be too upset
n dun blame other ppl or urself either, it's fated
stay happy!!!
Anyway...
I guess i'm growin up
I'm seein things differently now
tryin to b positive
though i'm seein more n more negative stuff
but it's part of reality
oh well
Mid years r cumin too!!!
Sianx...
Betta work harder
n of coz SYF SYF SYF!!!
Jia Yi Jia Yi Jia Yi!
Bi Li Shi Fu Guo Wan Sui!
smile =]

Life isn't perfect...

2007-04-10T07:51:00.000-07:00

Life isn't perfect
but it's its imperfection that make ppl lyk mi seem perfect!
lol
anyway i finallyin bloggin
though i'm not sure if anyone's readin...
MISS MI, PPL?
i dun think so
anyway
i'm begining to mature rapidly
i'm begining to accept that I'm called Ru Hua
n Prawn
n everythin else
n tht ia hav no image in dance!
lol
tht's not impt anyway
SYF's cumin
so i'll work harder
Mid years too!
Sianzzz
anyway i'm still tryin
so dun blame mi
at least i try
n now e gossip world is corrupted
cause there are either no gossips
or screwed gossips
lol
but i've becum a full tym gossiper
cause now there's no gossip abt mi!!!
n i hav totally gotten over INFACTUATING!!!!
yeppie
okok
tht's it
bye all
ur's sincerely

holidayz

2007-03-10T07:50:00.000-08:00

bleh
do you noe how i started my holiz?
do you?
well, do you???
i bloody started it with a freakin swollen face!!!
ROAR!
freak lar
and it hurts lyk mad
2moro i hav combined pract
i still hav to go
with a hurtin swollen face
look so ugly can?
i must wrap up my face or smth
cause i hav a stupid infection!!!
mayb hav to operate if it doesnt get betta soon
ROAR!
then i slept e whole day
gd news is
i finalli dreamt of a bai ma wang zi
but he was kinda cartoon lyk n blur
then bad news is cannot rmb how he look lyk
but was super shuai
lol
i spent e whole day sleepin
tht's why can dream
then i plaed audition
n i juz realised
woah
i love e name alex lyk hell
its so cool
cause gt this user called...
cannot rmb
smth lyk alex lah
then i find it super cool can?
lol
i noe u all will lame mi 4 sayin this

Stupid day...

2007-02-28T04:15:00.000-08:00

haha
i hvent been writing 4 a while
cause of loads of hmwrk
Stress? Not really
but i'm relli disappointed with the way i handled my tests n all
boo
anyway
i've got n math test 2moro still
boo
but nt much wrk
so i'm bloggin
todae was totally embarrassin
a stupid day!!!!
ROAR!!!
First i gt scammed by lerae to run in e competitive
boo
my stamina sux lyk hell now
nvm
then i surely die liao
ARGGH!!!
then i got scammed by xiao peng
to do cheerleading
n only me n lerae was sayin e cheer
so len can?
nice cheer kena ruined
boo
then on e way to dance i met desmond
n it was rainin
all his fault tht i got wet
n he still use my jacket as a towel to clean his hair
ROAR!!!
He owes me big tym!!!
haha jk
n so some dance girls lyk mi, hai wei, shi xiao n shu hui
want him to join xiao yuan super star
lol
then i went back home with lerae n shi xiao
then tok about stupid things lol
but it was interestin
n i spent 3 dollars todae!!!
5 dayz worth!!!
boo
i watched hanakimi (hua yang) while eatin
then laugh untill i cried
n almost vomited
ROAR!!!
wads wrong with mi 2dae???

Valentine's day

2007-02-14T05:11:00.000-08:00

lolx...
I had sore eyes and a fever 2dae
So i didnt go 2 skool n give my cookies
sian...
of all dayz
i spent e whole day slpin...
boo hoo
so sad...
i didn't even get to dream of my meng zhong qing ren as i claimed
boo
i did dream of smth though
bt i cant rmb
bleahx
okok tht's all

School Life...

2007-02-08T06:28:00.000-08:00

Heyy
lessons were as usual
BORING
but NO HOMEWRK!!!
Halleluyah Halleluyah
HALLELUYAH
HALLELUYAH
H-A-L-L-E-L-U-Y-A-H!!!
but then Yan Tong and Lerae were abnormal
Lerae was super dao keep frowning
Yan Tong became a looney
hahahax
As 4 mi i am still my sensible self hahaha
okok then yantong, judith, candy had art
so i went out with des, kel and lerae 4 a short while
to snack
hahaha
then at first super "cold" can???
Then it got better later
Became super lame
I coped food as usual
hahahax =P
Oh well
btw... why on earth am i a prawn?
N do i look very d=funny???

Dun you?

2007-01-29T06:32:00.000-08:00

I feel completely stupid
like i am totally tired
and i dunno why i'm like this
emotional breakdown a few days ago
but then no one saw mi
haha lucky
cause i'm ok now
i recover fast cause no point thinkin so much
or feelin so strongly
just live it the way it is
then wads thw freakin point of moanin over nth?
n i dun understand sum ppl
it's jus puppy luv!!! ( no offence )
nvm anyway i dun understand n dun nid 2 either
then wad i really dun get is...
Why do ppl jump into conclusions???
Think so far somemre
I hate to be accused when i didnt do anythin!!!
damn stupid lor...
then i'm oso damn unlucky
dunno if i can dance 2moro
then hope i can cope well with studies
cause tests comin soon
sian...
go n do my work now
haha
nitez

Lame sia

2007-01-25T06:21:00.000-08:00

hey
tryin to keep this blog alive
but everything somethin big happens i am too tired to blog Xl
ok then i fell lyk on mon
now still limpin
must be lame till cannot walk liao
sian.
then i dun think i can dance 2moro
sian.
I' gonna bcum fatter than i already am!!!
die liao.
Wad it they take height n weight???
Kill me.
then i keep goin out to eat KFC
did tht todae
with lerae n gang
I feel tht i'm expandin this very moment
hahaha.
how do they keep this skinny with a diet liddat?
btw i am nt Nicole Carmen Tan Rich Yi
Desmond u r lame
Then erjie oso
she gt anther husband
S*W**
hahaha.
Then i was totalli embarrassed todae
went to pass somthin to wh
then e whole 3D cheer 4 nthg
diao.
LAME DIAO!!!
then my dad bought loads of snacks
so if u would lyk to cum my hse
it's e best tym next wednesday
hahaha.
so i won't feel so guilty eatin all of em
cause u will all eat with me!!!
WAHAHAHA
so u'll all m fat too!!
hahaha
LAME SIA...

First almost 100% uncensored post

2007-01-20T07:40:00.000-08:00

heyheyhey
this is lyk e first post which i dun censor more than 30% of wad i wanna type
hahaha
okok
todae i went 4 flag day with e dance gurls
damn tired
me and shu hui lyk some kiasu despos asking 4 money
then alot of ppl very stingy dun wan donate (lyk me)
sian but then we still collect quite alot of money
then we went mc donalds
actually e boyz sae if we all go harbor front they will treat us
haha i might hav gone if e other ppl wanted to (totally cheap, i noe)
but didnt in e end (my free lunch T-T)
well they might be lying anyway
then we gossip lyk siao
hahaha
er jie i dedicatin 2 u...
erjie gt 4 husbands hahaha
X**** L***
R**
S**** H***
S****** (ok i made this up)
she'll probably still b addin (lah mei wad)
then i totally said this super stupid secret
(which some parts were wrong cause i got mixed up =P)
hahaha
then i cant wait 2 see *someone*'s reaction when *someday* comes
cant sae sian
then i wish i wasn't so logical
why can't i b less mature in thinkin n logic n more mature in behaviour???
Why can't i b lyk those crazy gurls with those crazy crushes?
Why am i lyk totally NOT CRAZY about all these STUPID STUFF?
LIKE, Damn, LIKE, cause that'll be LIKE, so NOT ME??? (totally bimbo)
But i wish it was

It would b so much sweeter n SIMPLER
i wish i needn't think so far ahead
and i wish i wasn't practical by nature

Oh...

2007-01-11T06:52:00.000-08:00

hahaha...
Okay, today was a super lame day
But b4 tht... Yantong is helping me with my blogskin!
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY ( pls note: i'm saying YAY not YA)
Okay, that was totally lame
Today lessons were just as boring as all e lessons tht i hav been attendin!!!
KILL ME
Then i've been dying and suffering for a super long tym
but then it was damn funny during e breaks
but i won't tell u in detail cause it wouldn't b funny anymore (like Lerae =] waha)
Then other than me and Yantong, no one did their duty!!!
Okay, i didn't really do mine cause
one very kind gentleman n one nt so helped me clear the dustbin anyway
thanks!!! Same goes to Olivia! =]
Then i went blog surfin on e 2D'06 ppl and dance ppl's blogs
WHee...

LOLx. Then i'll doing my song writing at a SUPER SLOW PACE
Someone inspire me pls???

new year - new post

2007-01-08T06:48:00.000-08:00

haha
my blog is really damn dead...
so i decided 2 post again cause i got a new com!!!
Yay! I'm in a new class now - 3J
oh well, it's a really nice class but- i miss my old classmates!
haha... Then i'm totally slacking ohhohohohohoho...
okay, totally lame
then there are like a overflow of rumors, WHEE!!! But i kinda decided to stop teasing some ppl
after my analysis haha
now my quote is " I don't believe in true love or liking at this age
It's just puppy love and infactuation
believe me or enlighten me "
so you can kinda ask me things liddat now
maybe i just dun understand
but as far as i'm concerned
i do understand more than others
cause i'm a viewer

sorry...

2006-07-03T00:08:00.000-07:00

sorry, my computer has officially crashed and there's nothing i can do about it
unless someone wants to give me a free computer...
anyone??? haha
then todae i was planning to go out with the ppl frm step cause i'm so bored
but then no one wanted to go
so i didnt go in the end
haha
actually there is another reason haha but i wont tell
=P
then Jean asked me out
but by that time was too busy playing DS
now i'm so bored...
do i regret?
dunno
hais...
my father needs the laptop back...
sad
so i probably wont be bloggin again for a long time....
byes

haix...

2006-06-12T09:19:00.001-07:00

Todae i went to e "ji zhe hui" thingie...
it was ok but certain parts were pretty droosy....
Uggghhhh...
Haix so i decided to post something else...
all about me...
Dun FREAK OUT AFTER u'vr read it:
ALL ABOUT ME PART ONE
if I: i ignore u on msn or always am busy when u r online
then it means:either
1] i am PISSED OFF WITH YOU cause you nvr reply when i tok on msn
2] i've been in a BAD mood for many days and u r nt the only person i am ignoring
3] i am ANGRY with you for doing something
4] i'm REALLY BUSY =]

if i: Tease u all the time about someone who isn't true
then it means: either
1] i feel that u r so CUTE when u are teased
2] i am so BORED
3] i suspect it is true and i wanna squeeze everything outta you

and if i: Tease you all the time on someone who is true
then it means: either
1] i dunno that it's true [ cause i dun usually tease others that is true ]
2] it is open and everyone noes it is true
3] i am jealous =] * okae that's nt true i juz put it for fun hahaha =P *

so how's that...?
haha
lame rite?
ask me and i will answer any of your queries

eee...

2006-06-02T08:46:00.000-07:00

eee....
i dunno why i start my post lyk this but
eee...
i am i a very awkard situation now...
cause it has nvr happened to me b4...
todae my granparents came to visit me
and we went lot 1 shoppin
i saw my juniors haha...
then we went to comics connnection
they said my sis and i could get anything we wanted
then...
eee....
eee...
eeeeeeeeeeeee........
i didnt have anything to buy?!?
what the hell???
I couldnt believe it...
so i got some crap and a book of shaman's king!!!
now i duno wad to do
i have some savings
and some money to buy presents for the others' bdaes
but then i hav the urge to go shoppin!!!
but then i hav nothing to buy!!!
eee....
i hate this feeling!!!
what shuld i do???

oww...

2006-05-30T08:25:00.000-07:00

todae we had dance again...
and i was aching even it before started cause of yesterday's practice...
we went on point, which according to shi xiao's sister's ballet teacher is the HARDEST SPORT
and it is SO PAINFUL...
Then we did spanish dance...
Which i put in SO MUCH EFFORT
but in the end i feel so disappointed...
because of what wang lao shi said...
HAIX, but then i noe it's my own fault
i'm really tryin
but i still make mistakes
then i feel as if i'm ruining the whole dance
SIGHx...
Then my whole body hurts
my arms and thighs ache
my toes hurt
and i've got 12 bruises which joined to form many big ones
on my knees and like my BUTT
what the.... %*^&$^%(*
haha
OH WELL...

once again...

2006-05-28T08:32:00.000-07:00

Happy birthdae to my to aunties
one whose bdae is on the 26th and the other todae!!!
ok, i watched gundame seed destiny and the other cartoons as usual
but then there was no ballet so i stayed at home to do homework
but then i was feeling bored so i did some pretty lame stuff [ which i am too embarrassed to speak of ]
yep... then i went to my auty's bdae party and ate loads of junk...
opps, so much for losing weight and being on a healthy diet haha...
=P

it's so embarrassin...

2006-05-24T07:31:00.000-07:00

Haix,
it was so embarrassin todae...
Jean, i feel lyk killin u!!! But then i noe if u didnt do that i wouldnt dare to
haha
okok
then liting sae she lyk samuel haha
then samuel wan take a parang and hit her
funny
we watched over the hedge
i was very cute
haha

woohoo...!!!

2006-05-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

The holidayz are coming!!! WOOHOO!!!
then there's a test coming up - WOOHOO!!!
then i might be kicked out of the speech day performance - WOOHHOOO!!!
And i'm sick!!! WOOOOHHOOOOO!!!
Okae, the million dollar question + of all the "woohoo"s... guess which is NOT sacarstic???
And you noe what???
I feel damn stressed sometimes...
and then i'm such a good actor no one can tell... haha
okay, i'm not kidding about that...
But that's not the weirdest thing
the weirdest thing is that i myself dunno when i'm stressed and when my heart is just faking it...
haha...

...

2006-05-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

tomoro is my ballet exam...
so nervous...
haix... i hav absolutely no voice at all
so sad lor
and i'm feeling sick....
but i'm still playin at this time...
wads wrong with me? haha
ok, nothing much happened todae lor
except that i helped pack the dance room
the seniors were very funny lor
haha
ok that's about it
hahaha
i thin ki'm getting the zy laughing diease

haha...

2006-05-16T07:08:00.000-07:00

INSTRUCTIONS.1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfectlover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave acomment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.*oh bother. HAVE FUN?

*gender: boy lah.... I am NOT a les!!!

wee... pls dun die reading this....
o1. RICH... WAKAKAKA [ u knew that was coming right? ]
o2. shuai or good looking
o3. smart but not too smart [ or else i will seem dumb ]
o4. cool or hot haha
o5. treat me well
o6. have a good fashion taste
o7. POPULAR
o8. have a "drop dead beautiful" smile

Do u think u can continue reading...? haha

Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head.Dun read the below questions before you write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.
o1. Elena
o2. Afiqah
o3. Raine
o4. Shu fen
o5. Natasha
o6. Chiou yih
o7. Li ting
o8. Zhi Ying
o9. Jean
1o. Grace
11. Samuel [ the blogger ]
12. Samuel [ Conflict ]
13. Ming Shin
14. Vergil
15. Leon Lim
16. Leon Poh
17. Mildred
18. Celine
19. Serene
2o. Wei Hao

How did you meet 14?[Vergil] Er... i haven't really "met" him, but oh well... online...
What would you do if you never met 1?[Elena] Wonder why i have nvr met her... i am telepathic haha...
What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?[wei hao and jean] Die laughing... DINOSAUR and LITING will fight....! haha
Did you ever like 19?[serene] YEP. she's my secret admirer no.dunno wad
Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?[chiou yih and mildred] no way... one is attatched liao
Describe 3.[raine] well, nice... VERY
Do you think 8 is attractive?[zhi ying] YEAH... She has so many suitors lyk hahaahahahahaha.....
Tell me something about 7.[li ting] She toks alot ofrubbish
Do you know any of 12's family?[Samuel ( conflict )] Oh pls... no
What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?[samuel (blogger)] Check if it is april fool or freak out
What language does 15 speak?[Leon Lim] English and Chinese
Who is 9 going out with?[jean] DINOSAUR
How old is 16 now?[Leon poh] 13
When was the last time you talked to 13?[ming shin] todae online...
Who's 2 favourite band/singer?[afiqah] dunno
Would you date 7?[liting] no, i'm interseted in guys
Is 15 single?[Leon Lim] Nope, he's got YH
What's 10's last name?[Grace] "Lim" jia zhen??? haha
Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?[samuel(blogger)] No way...
What school does 3 go to?[raine] kranji
Where does 6 live?[chiou yih] senja road
Whats your favourite thing about 5?[natasha] her birthdae is same as mine!!!
Have you seen no.1 naked?[elena] NO. Mingshin would kill me haha

*People i wanna tag to do this and the previous quiz:o1. mildred2. Celineo3. o4. afiqaho5. graceo6. vergilo7. sereneo8.shimin

happy birthday to the peeps of may!!!

2006-05-15T07:24:00.000-07:00

Okae, this will be very, very, very short
in case my com restarts itself again...
It lagged for lyk 30mins!!!!
what the...
&*^^%&*&(
censored
haha then so: happy birthday to the people born in may
in case i cannot go online after this...
happy birthday to joyce, leon, zhi ying, jovi, kuen yiyi, Mr Wong, Si yong haha...
ok!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAE

Vesak day...

2006-05-12T06:18:00.000-07:00

Hey... Today is Vesak day, which means 2 things, going to the temple and of course... HOLIDAY!
Okay, to be honest with you, this is my second version of the entry...
My first version was deleted before i posted it cause my sis went to read my entry on going to the temple and was "ROFL"ing. Well, why did i delete it? Cause she was laughing at how longwinded i was and kept on condamning me... OK, sue me for being a noob blogger!!!
So i'll write it again, but i'll cut it short...
By the time you actually read this post, it would probably be my 4th or 5th version...
Cause my computer keeps reseting itself... haix
today, I went to the temple and well did praying and stuff [ haha, i made wishes too! ]
Also, as the dedicated gamer i am, i played Zelda, Fire emblem and Onimusha...
[ didn't play DMC though, due to lack of time ]
I also played pictionary, and well that's about it...
Okay, so how was this entry...? Tag pls, cause it isn't easy being a noob blogger haha
and i'll try to improve... really!!!

I'm trying...

2006-05-11T06:27:00.000-07:00

I'm trying my best to be as active as possible, but my computer is a little...
haix, anyway i 4got to post yesterday haha
today, nothing much happened though, it's just that i'm so happy i scored 50/50 for my math quiz!!!
woooo hoooo!!!
that's about it though... so i'll write on what happened yesterday...
Liting, Anna and Joyce came over to play, and well it's pretty fun at my house cause there are loads of snacks, board games and a PS2!!! Then we kept on playing haha...
We played taito drummaster, and also marvel vs capcom...
Then it was really fun as we played the mini games and all...
then we went to the arcade... I wanted to play the basketball game only once...
but i accidentally tapped tiwice, and the fantastic thing read it as six times...
What the heck..? And so we played many times, but i was really violent so i was chased off half of the time... Cause it went over and hit the net multiple times, and one ball even went over...
haha, good thing it didn't hit anyone... shh...
haha

My first post

2006-05-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

This is my first post for this blog
Okae, i know i haven't been blogging for a long time, so i created a new blog...
Hopefully i will keep updating it, haha
Then today is my senior's birthday, and well HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
My wish list is really long... so I hope to shorten it soon, lolx
And i'll insert my tagboard soon so you all can write comments!!!
remember to link me